Rearview of Myself
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[Verse 1] Yeah I deal with self-hate Pick myself apart in the mirror till it breaks Scrolling through my flaws like a feed I can’t escape Every angle Every angle Every angle feels fake Yeah My stupid image Every little comment got me running like a scrimmage Smiling in the photos But I’m dying in the frame Trying to be a person They just memorize a name [Chorus] I been doing this my whole life You just see the highlight You don’t see the nights I Bleed into the page Trying to make my mind right (mind right) I been wrestling with my own face Living in a cold place You just see a cold case You don’t see the hand that keeps my heart in a choke chain [Verse 2] Mama said I’m gifted I just feel defective when my mood gets twisted Therapy on Tuesdays Jokes on Thursdays Laugh it all away then I crash by Friday Friends say “You’re killing it” I just hear a voice in my head that’s militant Telling me I’m nothing Telling me I’m bluffing Tell me would you love me if you saw the whole suffering? (tell me) [Chorus] I been doing this my whole life You just see the highlight You don’t see the nights I Bleed into the page Trying to make my mind right (mind right) I been wrestling with my own face Living in a cold place You just see a cold case You don’t see the hand that keeps my heart in a choke chain [Bridge] What if I’m enough Even when I’m cracked? What if every scar is a map back? I’m scared to believe it Scared I’ll relapse But I’m so tired of the voice that attacks [Chorus] I been doing this my whole life You just see the highlight You don’t see the nights I Bleed into the page Trying to make my mind right (mind right) I been learning how to show grace Even in my own space Look into the mirror Say “I’m more than the weight of every word that I can’t erase”